My Life as A Radical Whore/Madonna

In the past six days, the sun has gone on rising and setting, people are going about their lives, giving neither a first or second thought to me or anyone I know.  My life is a small piece of humanity, the cosmos and the universe.

That said, our daughter, Stella Damaris McPhaden, eclipses anything and everything that is or was.  She is as stunning as any celestial body, hypnotic and mesmerizing.

For those who haven’t heard, Stella was born by cesarean section early in the morning on Saturday, September 10th.  She was born with spina bifida.  And she is the most perfect, gorgeous person ever.

I am disappointed about how the birth ended up happening, but it happened the way that it needed to, and I got to labor for a long time (I’ll tell that story another time…) before they cut me open.  We’ll see what the future brings, but everything happens for a reason.

I’ve been in this hospital for 2 days and it feels like a week.  My abdominal muscles are shot and my belly sags like a sack of potatoes.  Two people have asked me when my baby is due.  Always a dangerous question.

I am so full of love and joy and happiness that I can barely contain it.  Stella kicks all kinds of ass, and will succeed taking over the world where I have failed.  She’s awesome.

Just a quick update - more later.  How much later?  Hell if I know…

Atena McMama

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